Yeah!!!

finally...after some time of assessment n more assessment....now more relaxed i guess....still honeymoon....wait til i go ward....hai...different....had me n my boy anniversary on 20...he had his ippt....he couldnt do sit up.....his back problem keeps haunting him n he got weak to e point his knees went weak during his run.....den he ended with bruises on his right knee..... so mostly we were just resting.....
the next day....we bought soccer(GAMBLE)....haha....yes...we won....at last together.... den we won back e money we put in e previous few rounds n additional....haha....enough to cover for my new shoes n shirt =]
tired liao.....tml got training....hope it all is well... hee.... i go off le bye bye

Falling dreams

As with most common dream themes, falling is an indication of insecurities, instabilities, and anxieties. You are feeling overwhelmed and out of control in some situation in your waking life. This may reflect the way you feel in your relationship or in your work environment. You have lost your foothold and can not hang on or keep up with the hustle and bustle of daily life.?When you fall, there is nothing that you can hold on to. You more or less are forced toward this downward motion without any control. This lost of control may parallel a waking situation in your life. Falling dreams also often reflect a sense of failure or inferiority in some circumstance or situation. It may be the fear of failing in your job/school, loss of status, or failure in love.?You feel shameful and lack a sense of pride. You are unable to keep up with the status quo or that you don't measure up.

According to Freudian theory, dreams of falling indicate that you are contemplating giving into a sexual urge or impulse. You maybe lacking indiscretion.Falling dreams typically occur during the first stage of sleep. Dreams in this stage are often accompanied by muscle spasms of the arms, legs, and the whole body. These sudden contractions, also known as myclonic jerks. Sometimes when we have these falling dreams, we feel our whole body jerk or twitch and we awaken from this jerk. It is thought that this jerking action is part of an arousal mechanism that allows the sleeper to awaken and become quickly alert and responsive to possible threats in the environment.

According to biblical interpretations, dreams about falling have a negative overtone and suggest that man is acting and walking according to his own way of thinking and not those of the Lord.

Break-Up
To dream that you break up with your significant other, indicates that there is something in your life that you need to let go no matter how hard it may be.

these few days kelvin has been dreaming about breakup for 4-5 times..... while i have been dreaming about falling....not as much.... i found a webby showing the meaning of dreams which i found it quite interesting.....i was wondering y my dear keep dreaming of breaking up with me.... so....i guess.... it isnt something very bad after all? i dunno.... just weird....i remember also got some changes in life? i couldnt find it again for the break up....

yesterday was a sweet day.... had some time of our own at last ^_^ so fun~ after so many days of downs....lol.....yea....havent been too happy recently.....hope today will be e same or better...but now sadly...kelvin is in camp til 9 while i am free now..... later will need to study for theory test of pharmaco drugs tml.....still got alot of time to kill.... like 10 hours....sian.....now at his house using his com..... waiting for him to call me....=] waiting for his family to wake up and go for branch? breakfast n lunch le.... den i go home.... still enjoying my training.....relaxed still ba....=] july30 go back to ward.....stressed.... hope i dun die.....hahaha.....

dunno later wanna go gym or swim....so many ppl....quite sickening....i dun like crowds.... but wat to do? no money for private membership at any sports club will have to do this way le lo.... just avoid weekends.... hahaha.....lazy ppl excuse.... watever la..... think will be more motivated if my dear pei me go exercise....

i go off le.....

im tired...

i am very down phyically....mentally....

i feel at a loss......

i cant seem to do anything much anymore.....

i dun like this feeling.....

can someone take this away from me?

i hate this sense of helplessness....

im lost in words..... lost in thought.....

tml i am going to work.... another long day....it seems tat we need to study for the nursing model in cgh or healthcare or dunno wat nursing care plan or bring bring notes.....

i just dunno anymore.....i have no mood for tat.....watever happens happens....

i dunno whether things will change..... i sure hope so for the better.....

in my own tears ~christina~

graduation tml.....

tml is graduation day..... havent choose wat to wear yet.....havent check if uniform is not like crumpled or wat.....i hate having to bother about all these.... but i think....my parents will be nagging at me for e next few days if i really show up crumpled or weird.....so ya....i think i will spend some time looking at my stupid gown.....am i glad to be graduating? HELL YEA!!!! all e 3 years of dunno doing wat....to get my diploma..... will i miss nyp? NAH~ only frens ba..... but nothing from e school definitely.....

Today kelvin got his wisdom tooth stitches removed..... I heard from him tat there is still a big hole in all e tooth.... got a nut stuck inside n he seems to be unable to get it out.....hope nothing bad happens...

im just honestly just not feeling very happy now ba.... im not going to argue or pick on u..... just a hope tat i have.....a wish....i dun expect everything i wan to come true..... or else.....this wouldnt be reality isnt it kelvin?

first day of work

got my new name tag today...yes....im a staff nurse...e thing i like about changi hospital attire..... is e shiny name tag n my white shoes.....hai.....was very dissapointed today....i saw e register.....im not in OT.....im in ward 26.....e HR told me about e change like today....confirmed de.....-_-'''....my mood really sian...cos....she really made it seem like i got in....cos for ot they only take 2 uniform but normal ward 3.....today she passed me e extra uniform so late minute..... everything changes so last minute.....sucks.....my mood really was not there to listen to anything they had in the many hours of lecture(8 i think).....e only comforting thing i could think of is..... i got a job at least..... and its a b1 ward if im not wrong(just private class).....not as back breaking as c class.....but i have no idea wat discipline tat is.....maybe still ok? i think? hai.....

sorry to yue ning not able to join u today.....finish quite late.....i thought u all would finish by the time i reached...cos i ended at 6 n needed to go home change first also.....

was down n bored out at e lecture all e intro...everything about cgh e many years said in one day, the many ppl in charge who who.....my mind is ya ya.....one ear in n the other out....cos its really too much to remember.....i still need to fill up dunno wat form later....i have no idea wat to write.....sucks..... tml own clothes formal attire....

ended work.....wat i wanted e most was just a good cuppa coffee....treat myself abit better..... after all tat stupid things.... went to starbucks with my boy.... he said quite alot of stuff about me going there n stuff.... maybe to him its a waste of money.....but tats wat i really like somehow.... as i used to say ~coffee is my fren~ i cannot imagine if i try to buy one coffee machine.....he will scold me ba.....i seriously thought of getting one....lol..... but nah.....lazy....hahaha.....i think he would be overjoyed to know i wont waste this kinda money on this.....my coffee pal yue ning....lol....used to remember nescafe(typo?) kopi can in e morning and during exams coffee at the food court in nyp..... fun la.....

i dun wanna type le.....good night